LAZARIS
Receiving the Healing from Your Higher Self
From the Connecting with Lazaris tape
By Lazaris
All right ... All right, fine. Well, it certainly is a pleasure to be connecting with you once again. We are very excited, and your Higher Self is very ready, to work with you and to heal with you. Right now your Higher Self really wants to work with you to give you a particular healing.
Now that healing may well be on a spiritual level, certainly so, an etheric level, if you will. It might also be on an emotional or on a mental level. It could even be on a physical level. But the point here is that your Higher Self has a gift of healing just for you. Perhaps it is a healing that you have been requesting; perhaps it is one you haven't even considered before. But it is a healing your Higher Self wants to give you.
How do you know? Well, you could say you know because you are listening or reading at this time. Regardless of what month it might happen to be (or regardless that this might be the second or third time that you have come back to these days of healing), your Higher Self is ready to gift you. And you are ready to receive that gift.
That urge, that tendency, that thought or idea that came into your mind, you feel it. Instead, maybe it was that suggestion from a friend ... a seen or unseen friend ... that gives you the clue: It is healing time. Maybe, very clearly so, maybe it was the way your Higher Self communicated with you. Very clearly, your Higher Self is trying to get through to you.
They want to say that they have some specific healing for you. They have a healing that they want to give to you. They want you to receive it. Yes, your Higher Self has a healing ready for giving and for receiving. It is a healing that only love can offer and that only love can supply.
And therefore we work with your Higher Self this month. We work with your Higher Self in these days to help you receive that specific and general healing from your Higher Self. In many ways they have asked us. They have been waiting for this particular venue, if you will, this particular avenue (this particular manner and means by which they can get through to you, reach you, touch you, and love you.)
And also you have asked us in many ways. So we respond: We respond both to your Higher Self and to you in these next many days of Receiving the Healing from Your Higher Self.
Life is a gift from God/Goddess/All That Is. Yours is to learn to receive it.
Now the first time we said that in a workshop was during the Evenings on Abundance, the art and the skill of abundance. And that was several years ago.
But, you know, so many more years before that, we suggested that self-love is all that you need to have in order to be totally successful and to totally evolve, totally grow, totally change, and become totally spiritual. Self-love is all that is necessary.
You don't need to know the myriad of techniques. You do not even need to know the blockages and the payoffs and all the kinds of things, all the stuff that seems in the way. IF, IF (oh, yes, that's a very big if) if you loved yourself totally. If you loved yourself totally, completely, without constriction, without condition, you would create everything, absolutely everything, you desired on the physical, on the astral, on the causal, and on the mental planes of reality. You would generate all that you needed to know, all the things you wanted to create, all the stuff (physically and etherically) that was necessary to complete this process ... this process of this lifetime and of all your lifetimes. All you really need is love.
With such self-love, you truly would love others. You truly would love them. It would not be something that you would have to remember or something you would have to do. Indeed, if you loved yourself, you would want a positive future. You would want to create a "heaven" right here on earth, in that sensing. And truly, you would create a "heavenly" future, a very positive future, certainly so.
It would not be a question of nightmares and mediocrity’s. It would be obviously clear: "Of course I'm going to create a dream. Of course I'm going to create a vision. Of course I'm going to create a future that is a wonderful and glorious heaven, a very positive future, certainly so, that is a heavenly future."
Now, since it is the future that creates the present against the backdrop of the past, that "heavenly" future would have only the impact upon what would be a very "heavenly" present. If you will, such a future would create a present, not a perfect present by any means, but a present that would be wonderful and wondrous. It would be fantastic. The present reality that would result from a "heavenly" future would be filled with richness and with boundless treasures waiting to be discovered and received.
And truly, that present would then transform the very backdrop. It would transform the past into a "heavenly" past. There would be no necessary activity of having to learn this or learn that. What you needed to know, you would know, because that would be the only self-loving thing to do. Even in the pragmatic fields of mathematics and languages, you would know because that would be the only self-loving thing to do. If you needed to know a foreign language, out of self-love you would know it. If you needed to know a scientific formulation or a particular skill, quality, talent, or creative expression, out of self-love, if you had it totally without restriction, without condition admittedly, without any limitation, then indeed all those things would be totally and fully and abundantly and ebulliently available to you.
If, indeed, you had that self-love, there would be nothing that would be beyond your grasp. Within your total self-love, there would be nothing that you would ever deny yourself or deny others.
But ... but ... yes, a very big but goes along with this very big if … but until you do love yourself totally, we also recommended so long ago and have recommended ever since, use the various raw materials that you have gathered. Use them to consciously create a reality. Also use the tools of creation to carve and chisel and cut and form that reality. Work with the generating and sustaining energies along with processing and programming techniques so that you might create receiving the bounty of love and the abundance of life.
Work with raw materials, tools, energies, and techniques so that you can receive the things, the healing and the love, and the love that you want. We suggest that you continuously move toward that self-love that is total, that is complete, that is without constriction, that is without condition. We encourage you to move closer and closer to that love while you use the stuff, your metaphysics and your spirituality and your relationship with the God/Goddess/All That Is, to generate the things you want; use the "stuff" while you are simultaneously working toward that state of love that would otherwise have provided it on its own.
Now there are so many ways in which you can work with your metaphysics and work with your spirituality to create, to generate what you want (and, at the same time, to work on the self-love that is so necessary, so much a part of your growth, your change, your evolution).
One way, however, one very specific way, on which we want to focus these days (is that of receiving the gift of love from your Higher Self). Receiving that love will allow the various techniques, the various approaches, the raw materials, the tools, and the generating and sustaining energies. To work in harmony, to work in an elegance and an excellence to produce the things that you want in your world. It will allow your metaphysics and your spirituality to produce the results that you desire, and at the same time, simultaneously, it will help you continuously work toward that total state (that unrestricted, that unconditional level of self-love that you so beautifully and so wonderfully want to accomplish).
This one function of receiving the gift of love, (Life is a Gift from God/Goddess/All That Is and yours is to learn to receive it) from your Higher Self can work on all fronts of your growth simultaneously. Such is the nature of the gift; such is the nature of the love.
When you receive this gift of love, you will be closer ... more loving, more intimate, and more caring ... with your Higher Self. Being closer to your Higher Self, understanding its dream for you, being able to work with its desire for you, and being able to know its goals, hopes, aspirations for you can be exhilarating. It can also be frightening. Questions of responsibility and issues around deserving inevitably surface when you consider and reach this greater closeness.
What keeps the love away? What makes this truth (Life is a gift from God/Goddess/All That Is and yours is to learn to receive It) such a difficult truth, such a difficult lesson and task?
There are several answers. We are not going to talk about each of them in a full detail here. We only want to remind you of what may stand in your way. You have the means (raw materials, tools, energies, and techniques) with which to free yourself from such apprehension and impedance.
What stands in the way? ...
Often, the nobility of struggle, the nobility of suffering with its fear and pain, generate the difficulty of lesson and task. For some, struggle and suffering are blockages still. For many, it is the nobility of struggle that snares them.
Some have an inordinate fear of their own reality stuff, of the raw materials, tools, and energies that they use to create their reality. They are afraid to look at their beliefs and attitudes, for example. They feel very uneasy about their own imagination or desires, as another example. Generating energies include things like trust, happiness, and value. Some people do not feel at all comfortable with such things as these. In this sensing, we would suggest, there is resistance to receiving love.
Another reason: fear of responsibility. For many, there is a fear of ownership and a fear of the very love and the very intimacy that you seek. That certainly stands in the way, stands as a barrier, stands as a sort of fuzzy, mossy barrier between you and that love, between you and your Higher Self.
Perhaps it seems too obvious to mention, but it is important. Another reason, and a powerful one for some, is control. If you feel the need, the desire to control, (if you have convinced yourself that you must control), receiving love is perceived as a threat. After all, love will make you feel "out of control." To those who feel they must control, love is risky business; love threatens.
Yes, self-pity. We would be remiss not to mention self-pity. Self-pity in its various forms, either au naturel or through the victim and martyr, is often used as the muddy clumps of junk that stand between you and your Higher Self and the love and the healing that they would want to give you.
There are other reasons. As you are considering and working with the idea of receiving this healing ... with receiving this gift of love from your Higher Self, what stands in your way? What stands in your way right now? What seems always to stand in your way?
A Beautiful Letter ...
As a way of beginning, we want to share a very beautiful letter that Peny, Michaell and the Channel (Jach Pursel) received from a dear friend of ours called Karen. She has given permission that we might share this letter in various ways, and so we chose to do it in this fashion. Karen writes to Peny, Michaell, and the Channel:
An Unseen Friend recently told me a Chinese story about a student inquiring of a T'ai Chi master how long would it take to understand the movements he'd been watching the master perform in the forest?
The master responded: "Oh, two or three minutes." If he was interested he could come along to the temple on the other side of town at sunrise the next morning.
Well, the student arrived at the appointed time and spoke with several of the students before the exercises began. He was surprised to find that many of the students had been there for a long time. One he spoke with told him he'd been there for 12 years.
After the session the Master asked the student if he had enjoyed watching the lesson. And the student replied that indeed he had. But hadn't the Master told him the movements would only take two or three minutes to learn?
"Yes, that is what I said," responded the Master.
"Then why have some of the students been working on them for so long (one for 12 years?)" asked the student.
"Sometimes it takes 12 years to gain two or three minutes of understanding."
Karen then proceeds to write of her own experience. "Maybe it took 6-1/2 years of working with Lazaris for me to gain the understanding to make the changes that the Healing Shame intensive brought about. Fine, fantastic! Do you know how truly magnificent that intensive was? Jach, you must have been nearly overwhelmed coming out of trance to such an outpouring of emotion." And truly he was.
"Then, as if the four days had not been grand enough, this incredible miracle happened. I was sitting quietly as everyone gathered their things and went about hugging each other and saying goodbye. I think we all felt close to have shared such an amazing experience. A friend of mine wanted me to go with him to speak with some friends, but I felt so emotionally still, and it was such a good, such a real, feeling, that I wanted to stay with it. Was I wallowing, I wondered? I just wanted to sit alone for a few minutes and hold it close to my heart. I was doing that, barely controlling tears.
And then a woman I'd never seen before came up, took both my hands in hers, looked into my eyes and said, "You are never alone." Without even time to consider what had happened, I looked at her nametag and saw my Higher Self's name.
It wasn't a common name, not a common spelling. I'd never seen it on a nametag or known anyone to have it. I was flooded with love and gratitude, and the woman said: `I'm not sure why I said that to you.'
"I assured her that I knew very well why, and I thanked her for trusting.
She said, `I'll see you again,' and left.
"I know. I know now on a level deeper than I've ever known before that my Higher Self is always with me, always loving me. And there's such magic..."
Phase 1: A Gentle Walk with Your Higher Self ...
We want you to go into a meditative place (and to go, of course, into your Safe Place). In this special place, meet with and be with your Higher Self. However vivid or vague the visualization might be, sense them, feel their presence, know they are there.
We want you then either to walk with or sit with them. ... Just be with your Higher Self. Perhaps you look at the flowers that grow in Safety. Perhaps you walk just looking at the plants that grow beyond Safety. Maybe you count mushrooms together. Walking, sitting, lying back in the soft grass, resting in the lovely laze of an afternoon. ... Be with your Higher Self.
In the midst of being with them, in the silence and in the solitude that the two of you as friends are enjoying, we want you to simply ask the questions: "Why won't I let your love in? Why won't I let you love me? Why won't I let your love in? Why won't I let you love me?" As you put the questions, your Higher Self will hand you a ball, or perhaps a spherical shape that you would call a ball, that has seven layers to it.
Now the layers will be as follows, and they are easy enough to remember:
The outermost layer will be sort of a fuzzy, fluffy layer. Beneath that layer, there will be a layer of twine or string, wound very tightly, covering the entire spherical surface.
If you were to peel back the string, all the way back, you would find that underneath the string is moss, sort of velvet-like, but no longer green, obviously. Brown moss. Beneath the brown moss there is a layer of clay, clay that seems to have been fired, for it is very sturdy, very strong, very much like a shell.
The fifth layer ... the one below the clay ... is mud. That's right, a layer of mud beneath the clay. And beneath the mud there will be a layer of sticky, oozy, gooey tar.
And at the very core of this sphere, at the very core of this ball, will be a stone (irregular in shape perhaps, but a stone.
After putting the questions (Why won't I let your love in? Why won't I let you love me?), and after your Higher Self tosses, or hands, or rolls this spherical ball over to you, we want you to work together with your Higher Self to discover what each of the layers of this resistance is:
What is the fuzzy fluff of your resistance? What is the string, the twine that entwines and snarls and wraps around you? What is the moss-like substance that is your resistance? And what's your clay? What is your clay that is hardened and fired so that it is now resistant like stone? What is the mud? What's the mud in your resistance? And what's the tacky, sticky tar of your resistance? And finally, what is at the core? What is at the root? What is the stone of your resistance?
And each day, as you do this meditation, you can work with unfolding the meaning in what you discover. Perhaps you will want to do one layer on one day (there are seven layers, seven days). Perhaps you will want to divide it up in a way that will work for you. Instead you may want to work with all of them each day for a period of time.
Also, remember that the answers may not come while you are in meditation. They may come through your night dreams or through synchronicity. The answers may come in many ways. Be open to receiving them.
Most of this work is done meditatively, admittedly so, but it would be valuable to keep track in your journal or just in your notes of what each layer means. And of course, think about it, observe it, recognize and acknowledge it. During these days of Phase 1, feel and imagine. … Allow yourself to understand.
During this first phase, you will come to know your reasons "why not." You will come to know why this lesson of love is so hard and why this task of receiving is so difficult.
Phase 2: The Release ...
It might seem so obvious, but it is very necessary to point out: We want you to work with your Higher Self at releasing each of the layers, (at destroying each of the layers of that sphere or of that ball that they gave you) that represents your resistance. And the key is, of course, to work together.
To that end, we suggest that you and your Higher Self strip away the fuzzy fluff, the stuff that's on the outer edge, the stuff (somewhat soft and fluffy), that is not all that big a problem. Peel that away and destroy it. Maybe you peel it off and throw it into a fire. Maybe you throw it into a nearby river. Maybe you throw it into the air and like the fluff of a dandelion it floats off to be someplace else. Maybe you bury it.
It is a surface issue; it does not need a great deal of work. But work together. Decide how you are going to release the fluff. More importantly, decide how you are going to release the stuff that the fluff represents.
Similarly, as you unwind the string, as you unwrap it, there may be knots and tangles. It may be like fish line. Work together to unravel this twine below the surface resistance. Figure out together how to destroy the string (and the strings of resistance it represents).
Likewise, work with the moss. Break the clay. What do you need to do? Do you need a hammer? Do you need some sort of chisel? Do you need another stone to break it? What do you need to do to break the clay?
How do you get rid of the mud? And once you get rid of the mud, how are you going to deal with this sticky stuff, this tar that's all over the place?
Finally, what are you going to do to destroy the stone? Which Element (Air, Fire, Water, or Earth) or combination of Elements, or other things, are you going to use to destroy the stone that's in the way?
As you work during this second phase to destroy the ball and its many levels, you will see that not only does it open you up to understanding, it can also open you up to receiving the healing and to receiving the love ... to receiving that gift of love.
Phase 3: Changing Patterns and Habits ...
Begin this phase by selecting a favorite piece of music that is relaxing and beautiful. We encourage you to listen to this same piece of music each time you work with Phase 3. There are many selections you could choose from; once you have chosen, use that same music throughout.
Ready? We suggest that you play the music long enough to accomplish the following things. Perhaps your selection is long enough; perhaps you will need to play it several times in a row.
In this sensing, first sit with your eyes open, just listening to the music. Just listen to it, looking around the place that you are sitting. We suggest looking around the room wherever you are and just noticing the things that are there. Noticing the most mundane, the most obvious; notice the most esoteric and subtle. Just look; just notice. Do this for about 5 minutes.
Now close your eyes. And almost as though to see the music, open to the colors and shapes. You may see the music as notes scampering this way and that or running up a set of stairs as though running up the staves of musical notation. You might sense the music as objects of various sizes and of various natures. Just look; just notice. Do this for 5 minutes.
Now you're ten minutes in: Five minutes has been looking around the room; five minutes has been watching the music.
Now, in that sensing, go into a meditative state and become very relaxed. Bring your Higher Self in ... into your Safe Place. In the silhouette of silence, they come to you as the human form.
Ask them to work on you, to work on you to change the patterned and habituated denial of love. We suggest, put it in a request: "Please work on me to change the pattern and the habit of denying your love, of denying your healing."
Let yourself drift off. You may go to sleep if you like. You may just go into some sort of abstract drifting sensation. Do not try to figure out what they are doing. Don't try to pay attention to the specifics of what they are working on.
Just know that they are doing it. Know they might be reaching into your heart and readjusting/realigning. They may be working with your brain. They may be working with parts of your endocrine system to change the chemistry or the mechanics. They may work with your nervous system. They may be relieving certain areas of the body where pressure has produced an irritation and a resistance.
You do not need to know exactly what they're doing. Trust them. Trust them entirely that they are doing what is going to work; what is going to work most powerfully and most effectively.
The total time may take 15 minutes. Five minutes to look around the room, five minutes to let yourself watch the music as it were, and maybe another five just to let them do the work, or maybe another 10 or 15, if you like.
But let them do the work without your knowing exactly, without your control. Let them change the pattern and the habituated responses that deny a particular love.
Phase 4: A Chrysalis of Love
As you began with Phase 1, so you end in Phase 4: a meditation.
In your Safe Place, let your Higher Self come to you again as it has so frequently. Greet them. Welcome them with love, with trust, with enthusiasm. With aliveness, in other words.
Allow them to come close; allow them to hold you. While close and tender, allow them to weave a chrysalis, a cocoon, a chrysalis of love. Take your time. Sense the two of you standing close together, perhaps face to face in an embrace, perhaps side by side holding hands, or side by side with arms interlocked or around each other's waists, standing close.
Watch as around your feet you see sort of a glowing crystal-like light of energy weaving, weaving and building. Perhaps like silk weaving and building, perhaps like a beautiful spider web weaving and building, weaving and building, weaving and building, weaving and building.
Up around to the knees, up around higher and higher. Let it build, let it build, let it build. Up around to the thigh, to the waist, surrounding the two of you at your waist levels. Up to the midriff, up around, around, around, all the way up to your shoulders, up to your chin, up to your nose, up to the eye so you can just barely see over it, in that sensing.
Let it weave up beyond the eyes so that now you are inside of it, building up to the forehead, around to the top. And at the top it is starting to close. It's starting to weave itself together, where there is now light coming in, and now a shaft of light, and pretty soon no light at all.
Let yourself be in the total stillness, the total solitude of a Chrysalis of Love. Realize that to the outside observer, this chrysalis may look like a ball, fuzzy on the outside with many layers. But inside there is no stone anymore. Now there is love.
Stay inside the chrysalis in the solitude until it begins to rumble, until it begins to crack, until shafts of light peek through, until the chrysalis opens, until it falls away chunk by chunk, until it all collapses to the ground.
And you stand with your Higher Self, face to face, side by side. And at that moment receive the healing. At that moment, receive the love. During this entire time, we would suggest, you have been, all along, receiving that healing and receiving that love. ...
We love you so. We close with love and peace.... Lazaris
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